i'm just a girl trying to find her place in this selfish world.

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alright. my assignment has been stressing me out real bad that it had come to a point where i see no use in continuing with the research and just log on to youtube and indulge myself in Beyonce's video marathon.

i know i should be worried about the grades and i am but(and this is not just some excuse i made up) the assignment was full of misleading info. and being the good student that i am,i already e-mailed the lecturer abt it and hopefully he will clarify it to the class 2mrw with clearer explainations. And that will then help me alot in finishing it. I don't see the point in doing something and then realise that what i had been doing wasn't what was expected of me because the info/instructions given was misleading.

eventho' the deadline is like next mon, i know i can get it done. well, a part of me know...the other part just wish someone would do it for me...come to think of it, it's really really hard to juggle both werk and school...i used to think i could handle all that stress but apparently nothing prepare me for the extreme stress im experiencing right now. and it's not just the assignment. its about how am i going to revise for the exams which is a month away(exactly!) when i'm werking 12-hrs and going to school at the same time.

I really really wish i could ask for leave or maybe perhaps switch some off days here and there but with so little manpower for the shop, i shouldn't be so selfish i guess. afterall, we are a team right. and so far, my team has been supportive in me further pursuing my studies. no complaints and no bad feelings that sometimes i get to leave early due to classes which starts at 7pm till 10pm...and i really appreciate their understanding. i couldn't ask for more.

sometimes i question myself, "What the fuck did you get yourself into?"... Like i have regrets for continuing my studies at this period when we're so short of staff...then the voice of reason said to me "How are you supposed to know it'll get all fucked up..?" and i felt so much better...hahahaha ( I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF THIS PARAGRAPH HOLD ANY MEANING TO IT OR NOT...)

anyways i just hope i ace the assignment and the exams...to prove to me that it's worthy of my time,effort,commitment and of course,money...coz i'll be very very disappointed if i don't...

alritey gotta get back to my beyonce video marathon...

im outs!